As of today I start my new job in two weeks. I couldn’t stay home with my baby for too long because we really can’t afford it. We need to pay off debt, and get car work done, and save up more for “just in case” reasons. I try to remind myself that the brief periods of change and possible upheaval of comfortable routines won’t scar my son for life. He’s the reason I have to help our family build a better future.
I’ve been through a long list of other options besides a traditional job- Etsy shop. SSI for Avery. Baking cookies for a friend (of course getting paid). At home mom types of jobs. I still can find no way to generate a steady amount of money sooner rather than later.
So….this is what we do for now. I read a quote today that said “Trusting God completely means having faith that he knows what’s best for your life”. It wasn’t documented who said it but Rev Run posted it on IG. It made me re-think my attitude about my upcoming job, which by the way is essentially the same job I previously had with someone else for more money. I’m not going to think of this as a set back since this was the job God meant for me to have. For now. I’m sure there’s a bigger plan at work. I am not meant to know what the future has in store for me.
With a greatful heart I look forward to the changes that are to come. I am still managing my Etsy shop, and looking into a direct sales gig on the side as well as “the cookie thing”. I have an order for June already. My gratitude list is long. My smile is still present, just a little wavering. It will all work out friends. I know it will.