Heyyyyy….let’s knock the cobwebs off this blog shall we?
I know, right? Where have I been? It really depends on the day of the week and the time of day, but essentially I let life get busy as usual and didn’t remember to do the things I like to.
In the last two-ish months I have fought for my job (and won), celebrated love with my love, started a new diet, lost 10 lbs, found a new place for us to live and gotten the worst cold I’ve had in years. Along the way I’ve had my share of ups and downs, despite my commitment to making 2014 a positive thinking year for me.
My recipes have disappeared for the moment because with all of the steamed veggies, grilled protein, lack of fun flavorful sugar and fat, my love for food has also disappeared. Hate to be blunt about it but there it is. I made a recipe from Pintrest last night that I almost took “nailed it!” pictures for because it was SOOOOOO far off from the picture on the interwebs that I had to make sure I had added the correct ingredients. It tasted ok, but again, I’m super down in the mouth about food so I barely wanted to keep the leftovers.
Miss me? I’m such a ray of sunshine today!!
With that said, for the first time in weeks my anxiety was up this morning and I couldn’t figure out what the trigger was until I inexplicably started crying at work. Hormones. Lovely. Can I PLEASSSSE just sleep through my monthly this month?!?!
Right as I was trying to navigate how to relieve some stress and tension today without having a cry fest I decided to read my work email and with the simple subject line of “Word to Live by” was this….
The Desiderata ( Latin for “Desired Things“)
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
I was surprised to say the least that again…right when I needed to hear it…God spoke to me through someone in my life.
I used to think I had no faith. I struggle with what that means, and I always feel “not very religious”…but I have to say when these things happen I have no other explanation and whatever small amount of faith that I do have stored deep inside is renewed. I have no way to explain it other than that and no reason to deny what my soul knows to be true.
I am reminded again to be grateful. To live in the moment that is now. To recognize my own ability to change my day with my perspective and my attitude. I am made aware that life is good. That I have a lot to be happy about, things to look forward to, and reasons not to fret over unseen things and possible future hardships.
Happy Wednesday all.